"Yoga is the cessation of the fluctuations of the mind"
My thoughts and my emotions: powerful waves crashing. I have spent so many years being pulled and tossed about in these waves. Fighting to get to shore. Unable even to figure out the direction of the shore, flailing madly in so many delusions.
I can feel these delusions, these samskaras, rise up on me still. Like a storm brewing at sea. Suddenly I feel so down on myself, so alone and unsure.
But I am learning not to try to fight my way to shore. Dive deeper, beneath the waves. Search for the calm beneath the surface. It's always there.
I'm always there. Deep inside.